I’m sorry but I need to vent and I love that this is a safe space to do so.
This morning I woke up with a UTI. I visited my long distance boyfriend this weekend, and while I always pee after sex, I assume it is a result of being intimate and I just have bad luck. The pain became worse and worse as the day went on, a lot of crying and a lot of switching between screaming while on the toilet and trying to waddle around to keep moving since that lessens the pain.
I scheduled a virtual doctor’s appointment because I didn’t think I could drive myself to the clinic today and there was a pharmacy within walking distance. Great! It took about four minutes and I was able to walk to the store to get the prescription (and a pint of ice cream) and walk home.
Unfortunately, on the walk home, a man in a car slowed down next to me and called out to me: “Hey. Hey you. Hey I’m talking to you. Why won’t you look at me? Hey turn this way”. I ignored him and continued walking and once I was one house away from mine, I realized he. had. followed. me. the. entire. way. home. My house is the last on the street and I froze, realizing he now knew where I lived. My three roommates are away this entire week and so it is just me alone. I stopped in front of my neighbor’s house trying to decided what to do, when my neighbor said a quick hello and only then did the man turn around and drive away.
I’ve locked everything and gone upstairs but wow. I’m so tired today. I’m tired of crying. I’m tired of having to deal with biological shit like UTIs after having enjoyable sex. I’m tired of our bodies being in pain like this. I’m tried of men thinking it is OK to call out to me on the street. I’m tired of men thinking it is OK to follow me home. I’m tired of knowing there’s a real fear that comes from men following me like this. I’m tired of feeling scared.
Thank you for reading, I really appreciate it.